Thursday, December 31, 2009

Time is the fire in which we all burn {Schwartz}

Wow! what a year. The ups, the downs. The good luck and the bad. The ones who did and the ones who did not, or came close to. The ones that were bad and the ones who were good. All of this was a gift to me. A point in time that will never leave my heart and soul. This only because I was at my point in time when called up to meet all challenges set before me. Ernest Hemingway put it best when he said,"Courage is grace under pressure". I only pray I get 365 of them again. To my love Dolores I say, lets do it again just you and I all the way to the end. Stay safe and keep your eyes and ears open. Sianara....

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

We live in a country where a Man can be a wrestler on TV, then transition into the day to day of the Governor of a U.S. State. Where a Man can be a star in Hollywood and rise to the Nations top position. We live in a country where a Man and a Woman can raise a family, and not have to worry about the Army taking their sons and daughters without the consent of all party's involved. We live in a country where you can walk to the corner store in most places and not have to worry about a bomb ending your existence on this Earth. We live in a country where you can speak your mind and not be jailed for it. We live in America. A free land. Free, only in what, when and where, but not in blood. Sianara..

Sunday, December 6, 2009


Dear Lord, thank you for showing me the way. I will remain strong. I will not let anger drive my emotion. I will love my Woman, and I will nurture our children. I will not lead or follow. I will forge new ground side by side with my beautiful Dolores. With you Lord, her and I are One. Thank you for allowing me to see with both eye's how much she means to me, and thank you for the Family you have blessed us with, I ask thees prayers in your son's Jesus name. Amen!

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Self- Reliance

I have arrived at a time in my life when I must make a decision to ether bury my head in the sand, or fight for what I believe in. Fighting for what one believes in is the most energy draining, life altering, move it or lose it moment of one's existence. When all ells fails, we seem to gravitate in the direction of last resorts. I feel that I am at my last resort. One that will require leadership, endurance, and the most important element of them all, Self -Reliance. Self reliance is the one thing that you must really have yourself wrap around, in order to endure the ups and downs of life's curve balls. Self reliance is a product of ones inner most desires. We will rely on ourselves to do what we deem important to our survival. If you lose site of your goal, Self- Reliance will get you back on track. Once you get yourself back on the road to self enlightenment. Then only can one consider him or her self back on the road to true love of Life! I will not bury my head. Please do not bury yours. Sianara.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

U.S Navy Seals under attack!

For those of you who have not watched the news yet. Fox is reporting that three of my Navy Brothers who as a three man Navy Seal Team, captured a high level and one of the most wanted terrorist who needed to be kept alive for interview. Are now on there way to court martial for giving him a bloody lip. This guy is lucky he is still on two feet and able to suck air down his Pie-Hole. He is a lucky lucky little man. Dear Lord, please bless my Brothers as they endure the latest, far left, Rules of Engagement. America better step up. Sianara and have a great day!

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Be careful what you wish for,because you just mite get it!

Time, you can only buy it when its defined to you by another. True Time is only bought by the effort we put forth. What is important to others may not be to you, thus defining time in the spectrum you call Home. Now while you chew on that for a while, I would like to invite you to ask yourself how long it will take for you to realise that you are who you are and the only thing that can change that is Time. Time will tell if you are up to par. Time will determine if you have what it takes. Words like Consistency, and Resilience are not just ink on paper. The words encompass the true nature of what it takes to succeed in what ever your objective may be. Do not wish you where further ahead than what you really are, because if you embrace things like, Determination, Consistency, and Integrity, you should be where you need to be, and wanting more is simply selfish and self centered. Sianara...

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Paradigms of persuasions

Its not what you say. It's how you say it.

Free Will

Free Will is all you need when considering Reciprocity. Just do it!

Monday, November 16, 2009

Killing Field

On November 12-2009 Brandon Thomas and Willie Thackston where among many of the Professional Repossessors across this country who go out and recover collateral for banks and auto lending institutions. On most nights every thing ends peaceful and safe. Not on the night of November 12. On this night Brandon Thomas never made it home to his family. The man whose car they repossessed shot and killed Brandon. Now his young children will grow up without a Father to show them the ins and outs of what life is. I say to you my Brother this tragedy will not go unnoticed. You are our Hero I solute you, and I promise I will never forget. God speed. Sianara!!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009


On this day I would like to thank my Brothers and Sisters who gave, and took, life and limb. You are my Hero's. You are the ones who bear the brunt, and or not one thing. Your service and dedication to our great Nation will not go unnoticed. I solute you. God speed, Sianara!

Saturday, November 7, 2009


When the weight of the world seems to be growing heaver on my shoulders, I only thank God for giving me shoulders to bear anything with. Happy to be alive, looking forward to the next day. Knowing in your heart, that you alone made it happen and not one person can take it away. These are the feelings and emotions that from a very young age, I have used to make sure I did not start feeling sorry for myself when ever arriving at a troubles door. If you want to be thankful for what you have even if your living in a cardboard box, go spend some time at a cancer treatment center or a shelter for battered women. I'm sure you will quickly thank God for what you have. Never quit, no matter what. Sianara.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Good Times.

As we approach years end. I cannot deny that three hundred and sixty five bad days are better than no days at all. My Mom always ask if I am happy. As her Son, I try to always answer with a yes. There have been times that I may have stretched the truth a little, but for the most part, I was able to answer with a yes. I remember sitting on the beach, watching the sun rising from the East. It was 1987 and I was on top of the world. I remember thinking that this was a time I would remember for a long time. Fortunately I never left the top. I have done whatever I wanted and when. This to me is priceless. I cant tell you how many people I would run into growing up and all I would hear is, I should of done this, or I would of done that but. It was my gaol in life from a very early age, to do every thing as if tomorrow is your last day on Earth. Some have come to not like me very much for the way that I am. To them I say, Good luck with that. Most have only added to the joy and good times. This goes out to my Fisherman Brother who is out somewhere off the coast of Alaska. He was on that beach with me on some of those blistery mornings. Sianara!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Working to live, or living to work

As I progress in age I cant help but ask if it was worth it. If what was worth it you ask? If all the effort I put into what my life is now, was all that effort worth what I have today. Well, let me see. I have three kids who love me very much and are convinced that I am the strongest and smartest Daddy out of all the Daddy's. I can wipe my ass on my own. I can feed myself, and at times even prepare the meal. Life is really pretty good about now. I love what I do for work and I love even more what work does for me. I guess I work to live and live to work, only because I can. So the next time you ask yourself why am I here. Make sure its the last time you have to answer. In closing I would like the FLDS leadership to know, that the Babylonians came and went. That its not high ground in Heaven that you get for turning out good. Its bigger wings so you can fly faster and higher than those who did little to be his brothers keeper. Sianara!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

If it looks like a Duck you could be in trouble!

Seems to me that the Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints . (FLDS) is all about having sex with as many women as one can support. In many cases as young as 16 years old. Wow I'm having a time with just one full time 35 year old Woman. I cant imagine more. You know what they say, if it looks like a Duck and sounds like a duck. Your probably in Colorado City, Arizona. On my next, we will look into some of the names of leaders of what some call a religious cult. Sianara...

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Legal Child Sexual abuse in America?

Today as I sit not able to tear my thoughts away from the fact that somewhere in this country of ours there is a child that may be in need of help. Help to get away from what he or she may have to endure from their sexual abuser. Lets take a moment and think about this. The U.S. deems Crimes Against Children a Capital crime, thus bringing with it a Capital punishment. That said, why are the Polygamist able to hide behind the Cloth and still operate within our Country. The Catholic Priest accused and convicted are not able to. We are coming down pretty hard on them, and for good reason. Please stay tuned, because I think I may have become a self proclaimed Investigative Reporter by Fiat alone.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Life Quotes.

If you are going to make a decision based on your needs alone. You will end up the same!

Sunday, October 4, 2009

A point in time is a hub to many possibilities

A really good friend of mine who I consider my brother, does not believe that Fate is something which governs our existence. I would like to not change his thinking, but only to point out that we arrive at a point in time out of fate. A point in time is a hub for many possibilities. Fate will give you choice. The choice made will dictate your outcome. We seem to make our decisions based on what the ones we love are in need of. Be it ourselves or otherwise. With that commitment comes the residue of the act. This residue is what will chip away at you until you are down to the nub unless you take possession of your direction. So when reaching a point in time, make sure that your choice is what you really want. Just remember that when the residue hits its mark. Just tell yourself that it's only the price you are paying for the direction you decided on at your Point In Time. Sianara!

Friday, October 2, 2009

I would like to challenge you to think of some of the things you would like someone to say at your end of life. I know that some, if not many of you would declare zero attention in regards to what people may or do think of you. That said, the challenge is to ask yourself whether or not you made a difference for the better, in peoples lives. It is not what they think of us. Its what we think of them. Sianara.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Defining Moments

A Defining Moment in our life. A time when all ells is lost, or every thing is won. Good times and bad will define the time at hand. Its what we do with this time that will define you as a individual. Will you be one who will do? Or will you be one who talks about doing it but never really makes it to the mark. Its what we do with this time that will determine if you can regenerate positive forward motion on its own power. It takes more energy to excerpt anger, than it does happy feelings. For obvious reasons happiness just seem to flow out of us like the water does from a fresh water spring. That said, just remember that we are on this Earth for a very short time. So when you arrive at a Defining Moment, identify it, and let the spring flow freely. Sianara!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Today is the day that my life takes a turn. Unplanned events lead me in the direction of knowing in my heart that I must stay on purpose, trust my process, and let go of the outcome. I will do this by focusing on my priorities witch are Health, Family, My work. and balance. This is my world. I will do this because I have tried every other way, and this way seems to fall into place. Though I may feel as if it's to good to be true. I'm going to stay on purpose, trust my process, and the outcome will stay long gone! Sianara...

Sunday, September 20, 2009

As I sit and enjoy the company of my children on this beautiful Sunday, I also think about the Mothers and Fathers across our great nation who are also sitting at home. In particular the ones who have a son or daughter that has taken an oath of office, and sworn allegiance to the United States of America. To protect her against any and all enemies. They have done this because they love their country, and because they love their family's. Laying ones life's on the line is the job of a soldier, and we as Americans should always know that we are able to do what we do on a daily basis, duo to the hard work and undying dedication of the United States Armed Forces. To my friend Rena, who's son Shane is on his way to serve his Country, I solute you and your Son. For you are true Patriots, and my love and prayers go out to you and your Family. God speed. Sianara!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

In some cases its not practical to want to be the best. However it is practical thinking if you strive to be, one of the best.

America's Heroes

June 21 2006 is the the day that Sergeant First Class Jared C. Monti gave his life as he faced a barrage of gun fire in an attempt to save the life of his brother at arms who was wounded and pined down only 30m meters from a tree line containing over 40 enemy fighters. Sergeant First Class Monti made three attempts to reach his downed soldier, on the third attempt he was hit by a rocket propelled grenade which ended his life. Sargent First Class Jared C. Monti, you are a hero and I solute you, and I prey that your families pain will not go unanswered. Sianara
Thank you to my friend Paul for reminding me about this passage.
Ezekiel 25:17

The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he, who in the name of cherity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of darkness, for he is truly his brothers keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who would attempt to poison and destroy my brother. And you will know my name is the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon thee.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Today was a great day. I have come to the realization that time is a precious commodity. Do not make the mistake of misunderstanding me when I say that. I am in a rush to get to heaven. I am in a rush to get rid of this flesh body that craves pleasures of the flesh. I mean who does not like feeling good. What I mean is that we have been given a small window in time to make a difference. To make a difference in the liefs of the people that are not able, and or are challenged when it comes to positive forward motion. We all have our limitations, but very few of us know our place. To many people need to portray themselves in a more favorable way than what they are really able to deliver. The individual that overstates there position in order to impress others is one who really needs help. I prey that they get it. Sianara.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

The situation as it stands is one of disbelief and resentment. Disbelief that I would let myself think that life would finely be what I pictured as a child. One of raising a family, buying my own house, a big enough yard where I would have to buy one of those riding mowers. A life where A man could come home after working hard all day and be greeted at the door by his children and Wife, and sit down to eat with his family, discussing the day and enjoying each others company. The resentment comes from letting myself think that this type of life comes by way of only hard work.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

To one of the last Kennedy patriarchs, Ted I bid you God speed brother. Thank you for your undying dedication to the greatest Country on Earth. You selflessly dedicated your time to the young children left behind by a brutal battle for power. This done by cowardly men, who for what ever reason felt it necessary to end a life, only to advance the position of one other. Thank you Ted for showing us that life must be lived hard and for a reason. Otherwise it's only just an existence. Thank you for showing us that Patriotism is best displaid as one lives their life. Thank you for your humility, as I know that you knew one must learn from his or her mistakes. Thank you Mr. Kennedy. Thank you for being you. Ill see you on the other side brother, God speed!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Dear Lord, thank you for showing me that what I deemed as a meager task is really your way of showing me that the simple things are sometimes the hardest to accept!

Sunday, July 12, 2009

As time passes I realize that the most important things in life are the people we love. Love means never having to be lonely. Love will allow you to move through tough time in a manner witch is conducive to a positive outcome. Love will always win. Love will always evolve to great things. All we must do is open our hearts and minds and love will do the rest. Sianara

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Our founding fathers set up our government so that it would not leave the most important decisions to not only one individual, but a group representing every square mile of our nation. Iv herd things like, the political jobs are groomed from the start, and its all predetermined who is going to be president. To the electoral college is rigged and the popular vote does not matter. The bottom line is that the basic structure of our government allows for diversity without indulgence. Sianara...

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Today I watched part of a show on a cable network, and was shocked when I saw A reality show Mom, cook on the stove while two of her children were playing at her feet, one of them was siting in the storage drawer directly under the oven. I am at a lose for words. Sianara......

Saturday, June 13, 2009

With very little sleep for the week, I find myself thinking of things that have laid dormant for some time. What I'm referring to is family, and what that means. What you do for or to individuals, is what defines your importance to that person. Family should give unconditional love. So does that mean that if, God forbid, a family member commits a felony, do you turn him or her in? Or do you do something ells. Now I feel lucky to not have had to deal with that, but some people have. Lets tone it down a bit and let's say that a family member steels from you. What would you do then? Some people would never talk to them again. With me, it would depend on how they handled the after math. If a person commits to a bad choice, what he or she does after the caca hits the fan, will in most cases give you a clear view into that individuals hart and mind. There is only so much that you can do. People who do not want to change, are not going to be persuaded to change. There are some exceptions to the rule, but for the most part if they do not want it there is very little you can do, other that keep them in your prayers. In closing I would like to thank the Doctors and Nurses for all the work they did on me. I have a new found respect for the VA. Yesterday I felt I was back on a military Hospital like the ones that I remember from childhood and active duty... Sianara

Friday, June 12, 2009

I got into my first fight when I was in kindergarten. I lost and ended up on top of an ant hill, put there by a bigger kid. Iv always said that you have to get your but kicked at least one time, so you know what its like. The lesson I learned was the one of mercy. Later, in first grad, I had a kid who wanted to fight me because I didn't back down to his remarks. So I told him that I would be happy to fight with him, as long as I change my school clothes, because if I got my school clothes dirty, my Dad would have my rear end. I won that fight. It was the first fight that I won. I remember my brother telling me what to do. He told me to strike first and hit hard. That's what I did, and the poor kid ran home in tears. I felt guilty for hurting someone like that, but I quickly recovered from that with the help of the victory over the bully. Sianara....

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

I cant help but feel irritated, in regards to all the doom and gloom everyone is talking about. Im going to try my hardest to follow a positive note. We as Americans have a gift. That gift is that fact that we are fighters. We fight for what we believe in, and most of us keep fighting until its over. The buying and selling of goods and services, is what fuels the economy. If you don't spend your putting the brakes on progress. Just make sure its your money your spending. Sianara

Monday, June 8, 2009

I feel like I do in some of the dreams that I have where I cant do some things, like run or walk. I find myself moving my legs and not going anywhere. I feel young in spirit, but old in body. I keep telling myself that I'm at a pit stop, getting things fixed so that I can continue on the the last part of the race. All I have to do is believe in my pit crew and focus on the road ahead. Knowing that the finish line is mine as long as I do not quit. Sianara
Suffering from chronic pain, brings out the inner most you.. Most people revert to our primal traits. that is of food and water, shelter and affection and every thing ells seems to just wither away, and the next thing you know you are following a regiment totally different than what you planed, prier to your injury. Slowly you start to loose the need for the basic things as well. That's the critical stage that one must past muster on, because if you don't, its for keeps and your gone, game over. The only thing I know is that I'm doing this on a day by day basis. Its funny, when it comes to the humane body you cant really predict whats to come next. All you can do is stay alive and stay out of peoples way, and pray your but off, and every thing will come out in the wash. Sianara...
A new friend of mine turned me on to a verse in the Bible, Philippians ch-4 verse-4-5-6 and 7. Now ,I don't read the bible as much as I should, but It talks about the importance of being nice to every one. That really rang a bell with me, the being nice part. The reason I say this, is because when your in pain it's really easy to not be nice, I see it at the VA often. You have guy's coming in for service, and not feeling very good, and expect people to jump at their request. I mean if your in pain I can understand why you would be so demanding. I myself am one who goes in for service and tries to use more honey than vinegar, because in many VA's across the country there is a Veteran working behind the desk. When your in pain, that's when its hardest to be tolerant. So I welcome the challenge every time I deal with people who just don't care. Sianara....

Sunday, June 7, 2009

We strive as young adults for more responsibility as we are climbing the proverbial latter. We multi task and and try and reach the goals that have been set . Then, as we enter the latter part of our lives, we seem to want to get rid of as much responsibility as possible. sounds like a simple cycle. If you apply simplicity to life, you simply get less aggravation in return. Ill never forget when I was told to stick to the basics. I new that phrase had profound meaning when I herd it. Sianara...

Saturday, June 6, 2009

On a day like today I would like to thank the men who hit the beach knowing that they could be the next to fall. Even though they feerd possible death, these are the men and women who put everything ells aside and executed orders, regardless of their innermost feers. Its because of them, that I'm able to publish this blog. The fact that I receive better care than my brothers and sisters coming back from Vietnam, I attribute to the same men who made a blood deposit in Vietnam and felt the end of a whip held at the hands of his countrymen when they came home,
and didn't just lay down, but pushed the Veterans Administration to provide comparable care, comparable to the commitments they were ordered to keep..So on a day like today I thank them for going first and fighting for the rights we have today as Americans. Growing up abroad, and then coming to America was the biggest lesson I have learned in my 41 years on this earth. The fact that I can go down to any city, state, or federal government agency, and ask them for a permit to protest against the very same agency that's issuing the permit, and get it, to me is the most amazing thing in the world, after child birth. My point is that people will always want more. I cant tell you how many times iv witness people badmouth the Police, and then be the first one to dial 911 when he or she needs help, and then complain on the service, or try and file a petition in court, alleging one thing or another, knowing that the possibility was there that they may get a small settlement just for putting a hand on the bible to say "Yes", and the very next Sunday be at church asking for forgiveness, something I only noticed in a Gypsy. That was until I started working fraud and chasing wanna be gangsters. We must all be thankful for what we have, I myself, as iv said before "I will never even take the ability to smile for granted.", and ether should you.. To my Brothers and sisters at arms, To you I bid God speed, may you hit first and hard, with the wind always at your back. Sianara....

Friday, June 5, 2009

At about this time on June 5 1944 the Rangers from the Second Ranger Battalion, companies D, E and F under the command of Lt. Col. James Earle Rudder, where on a ship in rout to Pointe du Hok Germany. I can not even start to think about what they were thinking of. Knowing that they may not be coming home, maybe thinking of the walks that one of them may have taken with a loved one, or maybe there was a Ranger that was thinking he could not wait to get home so he could go on a date with the beautiful red head Molly, who he met at a going away party, who only lived two towns away from his. Or maybe there was a Ranger thinking that he could not wait to get over there and kick some fartfunugan ass. Regardless, I hope that they where thinking that the mission at hand would be monumental in regards to humane history. I hope they new that we as Americans would never forget their sacrifice. I'm sure that it was pretty gut wrenching knowing that if they did not succeed it taking Pointe du Hok, the rest of there brothers would suffer large casualties, If I would have ben able to say something to those men I would have told them That in less than 2 hours you men are going to fight the biggest fight of your life's, and I will always hold them as Hero's. My children will be told stories about the brave men who answered the call of duty, and without reservation, crossed great oceans, in order to bring down a Teireness faction that followed, as the 40 president of the United States Ronald Wilson Reagan said, concoring way's. I would tell them that I love them, and would, for the rest of my life see them as my American Rangers. And to never forget, that they are America, and because of them, we would always be free men and women. I would say thank you and God speed. Out of the 225 Rangers to hit the point. less than 100 made it. to all 225, I solute you and thank you! Sianara.... I will never forget........

Thursday, June 4, 2009

I Had a good friend of mine, who has since passed on, who told me one time that he was on a gypsy task force in Chicago, and would work civil cases for larger auto finance companies, in regards to allegations of fraudulent intent or otherwise. He told me that his first contact with Gypsies, happened when he would go and rent a horse at age 10 from the Gypsy stables. he learned only later about a Gypsies greed and did so on the other side of the world knowing that he was dealing with the same ideology of what a gypsy believes, thinking they have God's permission to steel, same gypsy mentality that he witnessed as a child, but this time he wasn't on the friend or costumer side of the Gypsy salesmen and locale thief . he was on the side of the guy who was taken by the gypsy. He said that they would pretend not to be greedy, but deep down inside they were. He told me , he was caught up in a discrimination case, where a Gypsy AKA Travelers, alleged that my friend "discriminated the Gypsy race." By implying that all Gypsies in the area of the Chicago metro to include suburbs, and the Michigan, Florida, Illinois Gypsy criminal circuit where all up to no good. He started laughing, and said" Gypsy? Gypsy is not a race of people, its different races, with the same ideology.

My point is. If it is not yours. Don't touch it. If you cant afford it. Don't take it from someone ells who can . Because the minute some jack ass starts to think "hey I'm going to go out and take something that's not mine" we will guaranty you 3 meals per day and a warm bed to sleep on. My friend said that the client with the Gypsy Problem, changed their language and started calling our targets "Travelars". Sianara...

Monday, June 1, 2009

My Lord and Saviour. I ask on this day that you grant me vision, so that I can see and avoid he who comes to me on his white mount, draped in simple cloth and wearing his crown of twine. Lord help me to navigate past the false profits that only want to remove your seal from my forehead. Lord thank you for giving me the chance at ever lasting life. I ask this in your sons Jesus name Amen....

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Vine, Veri, Venci.

Friday, May 29, 2009

"Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens." (Carl Gustav Jung)
I remember a time when after so many other accidents, I knew in my heart that on this one I would not make it. Before then, I dreamed quit often. After, I started to look within myself. Focusing on the things that were not conducive to the positive outcome most would want. In doing this it seemed as if my whole life structure shifted to a point in time, where things did not seem to affect me. In a way I felt numb to the world. Calloused to friends and family, I worked 18 hour days, sometimes just coming home to shower and change my clothes, I kept this up until the birth of our second child. By this time I was pretty fearless and often would have police following us after pulling us over and finding out that we were working. Following us because they feared for our safety, working in the areas we were in. If People would realize their potential and then find happiness within that realm, we mite have a little more Peace in the world. Its only when the guppy wants to swim in the shark tank that you run in to problems..... Sianara....

Monday, May 25, 2009

"There is one great thing you men will be able to say after this war is over and you are home once again. You may be thankfull that twenty years from now when your sitting by the fire place with your grandson on your knee and he asked you what you did in the great World War II, you WON'T have to cough, shift him to the other knee and say, Well your grandfather shoveled shit in Louisiana. No, sir, you can look him in the eye and say, son, your grandaddy rode with the great Third Army and that Son-of-a-Goddamned- Bitch named Georgie Patton!" General Georg S. Patton, Jr. June-5, 1944

Many of those men did not make it back to that place by the fire. We will keep your storey alive, we will remind those who in there self deprecating ways go about their lives not knowing the great men who gave there lives so that we can continue on as free men and women and in the pursuit of what ever it is that we may want to pursue. My father and uncle both served in Vietnam. I served during the cold war under hazardous conditions, but all three of us made it back to our family's, and our life's continued on. Today as every day should be, is to remember those who are not by the fire with use, but wait for us on the other side. I solute you and your family's with tears in my eyes, and I swear with God as my witness I will honer you for the rest of my time here on Earth. I love you, and I thank you for committing the ultimate sacrifice, for you great men and women are my Hero's. God speed. until we meet again. Sianara...

Friday, May 22, 2009

People ask why the United States of America always seems to get involved with trouble in other parts of the world. Well ill put it as simple as I can. If someone pop's a nuke above ground, we all die. Is that to simple? Let me try this one. Lets say that you and ten of your co-workers are in a 20 by 20 foot room, and every one has one hand grenade. We all know what will happen if only one goes off right? Ya, you all Die. So if just one person starts to get mad and threatens to pull the pin on his or her grenade, or worse pulls the pin but does not release it and starts to make impossible request. What would you do? I know in my heart that I would expire that individual. I would hit first and hard without warning.. Would you do the same? I think you would. Case in point, Iran has pulled the pin.. Must I say more? In closing I say to the commanders in theater. Use your men as an extension of yourself. Strike first, Strike hard, and remember, never let your men see you cry in the face death. I salute you and bid you God speed. Sianara......

Thursday, May 21, 2009

To all the murderers, rapist, and child molesters. Remember that even though you may not believe in ever lasting life, I want you to know that you have a very special place reserved for you on the last day that your flesh body takes its last breath on earth. A spot that I'm sure you will agree will have a warm if not a hot reception upon your arrival. Here you will get ten fold what you gave during your brief stay on Earth, and you will get this day after day for ever and ever. I'm sure you will find the atmosphere to your liking. Someone said that people don't do bad things because they are evil, they do them because they like it....... In closing I say, tell your loved one's that you love them every day because tomorrow may never come for some of us. Sianara.....

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Today a commercial for what seemed to be a bid for nationalized health care, almost had me believing that such a system would work in this country. Then just as quick as the commercial appeared, my thoughts about it working disappeared as well. Americas foundation was built believing that one could live in a country that would allow individuals to be the best they can, and always having the gift of being able to make our own choices, as long as it did not compromise the quality of life for the rest of us. Nationalized health care will not work, not only because it dose not work in other countries, but because humane life is the most valuable thing on earth. That said, why would we not want to have the best doctors be the ones who prosper and rise to the top because of skill and not a slot that has to be filed with a worm body who may have barely passed medical school. One, if not the biggest underwriter, of our time Had executives make risky maneuvers, and the horses they bet to win, didn't even show, and now we are trying to fix something that didn't need fixing. The only thing that should have any fixing, are the bottom's of the guys who bet with the blood and sweat of hard working Americans , to the bunk in a jail cell. That way when some guy thinks he can hit the big one, hell use his own money or simply not do it. In closing I would like to thank Mr. Newt Gingrich for bringing it to the Congress woman from California's 8th district. To you I bid God speed. Sianara.....

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

One thing that I have definitively learned in my 40 years is that there are two kinds of people that walk the earth.. You have the ones who are in the pursuit of big money and or power, or both simultaneously. Or the other who is the one who finally figured out that they were not capable of both big money, or power, and decided to do what needs to be done to not live on the street, and in some cases to just be able to live period. Out of both types just mentioned, the first do it because that's what makes them happy, and the later do it, out of necessity. Don't get me wrong. There are exceptions to the rule, like the folk's who are community leaders, and community helpers, that pick up the slack that the Government machine creates, while trying to keep Americans in a position to move forward in as a positive way possible. The exceptions to the rule type people are my kind of people. The ones who believe that a Win Win situation is possible in this world. Earlier I wrote that I believe that we will have Peace on earth when all the people are gone. If you think about that statement, it really makes sense. I say that because most people get what they can, and allot of them feel that if nobody saw it then its OK. Well that thinking gets you a middle, if not less of the road kind of life. If that's what some people want, It's cool with me, because like Gorge Lopez mite say "Saves Que? just stay out of my way and it's all good. Last year I was at a location where I found myself sitting next to a Veteran who after sitting together for two hours, told me that he was in the battle of the Bulge where members of the 1st, 3rd and 9th Army's fought, and 77,000 men gave there life's, fighting under the command of Field Marshale Montgomery. I shook his hand and thanked him for not giving up. Until next time , as long as God gives my body breath, Sianara...........

Monday, May 18, 2009

I heard that we lost more servicemen to suicide after Vietnam than in the War itself. The politicians war, as they say. As I sit here, I know that if I don't lay down in the next 30 to 45 min, I'll be in pain. That's while I am on pain pill's. So Imagine one who cant get up at all. You can sleep for only so long , before you succumb to the grip of depression. People commit suicide every day in our country.. It's an issue that some communities have had to deal with because of the times we find ourselves in. The taking of one's life, usually involves mental illness. Those who ask if they are going crazy, from what I'm told, usually are not. It's only those individuals who do not question themselves that may be, and usually are mentally ill. With some exceptions to the rule. People who are going to commit suicide in most cases succeed. Those who need and reach out for help are usually what I call the survivors of suicide. The 1-800-don't -kill yourself numbers seem to be there for the folks who don't really want to die, but need help. Not wanting to hurt other people,thees guy's end up as the aggressor and the victim, all in one, to what I would say is a crime. I say that, only because of the wake of destruction it makes. So God forbid if one of your friends or family members tells you that they are going to kill themselves, and you run to there side and they're still alive. Make sure that you get them the help they need, because the next time they may not want to live, and actually follow through.. This week Is dedicated to my Brothers and sisters at arms who are waiting for us on the other side. To you I salute and present arms. God speed and may the wind be always at your back. Sianara....

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Today acording to a news publication Twitter and Face book were creating havoc in the work place. It also mentioned one guy who posted that he got a job offer in San Jose and he was weighing his options which were, the commute and the fact that he did not like the work. To that of a fat paycheck. I don't know about you, but I'm wondering how this peace of work got as far as he did, in order to get the offer in the first place. I cant tell you how many times I meet people that are just getting by. Doing just what they need to squeak by. The only thing that I want to be associated with that squeak's by, is the byproduct my body produces when it turns food I eat , into energy, so that i can stay clear of this type of individual. Because even as a low level employs this guy or gale can ruin you, and what ever type of business your in will determine how long it will take. I understand that selfishness is a form of survival in some cases. I know because I'm not one who has not faltered at one point or another. My point is that Facebook is just like talking to your coworkers at work or any other place that you mite be in each others proximity. Except with Facebook your using a bull horn so every one can hear. So use your head and if your going to use a bullhorn you need to choose your words carefully.
In closing I solute my brothers and sisters at arms who have given there life's for our country. You I give my deepest gratitude for your sacrifice and that of your family's. I will Honor you always. Until we meet again on the other side . Sianara......

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Today I dedicate to my love, who is a mother to my three healthy and very happy children. When most people get in to a hard spot, the first thing that comes to mind is their mother. When people arrive at a really good point in their lives, most think of mom. I think about mine every day. Mothers are tolerant with us when we have trouble towing the line. With the love and acceptance of a mother, most of us can proceed forward, learning from our mistakes. Having mom there to help us along, picking us up when we fall, and telling us that its OK to cry, comes a long way in the motivation department. Mothers are lighthouses to a lot of us. A beacon helping us navigate life's oceans of knowledge, dangers and riches. A mother of one or more will always be there for us no matter what. She is strong when times call for it. She is tender, when a tender moment is needed. She sets the tone for most of the homes in the nation. So today is for my mom, and my love Dolores, who is my lite and that of my kids. I want her to know that all her hard work and understanding will always be remembered, and that our children will always treasure the times with mom well into there elder years. You are Kind, Ravines, Intuitive, Sensual, Tenacious, Imaginative, Nurturing, to me, I Love You! Sianara.....

Saturday, May 9, 2009

I have a good friend of mine who has already passed on, who told me that he would take on special projects, and would get to them as he went about his day. His projects consisted of getting small time petty dealers to stop dealing drugs. He told me that he would focus on the ones that did it to support their own habit or to plain just be able to eat and pay for rent. He said the ones who did it to pay rent, usually had children that needed to be cared for. He said that in most cases all you had to show them, is that all the energy they use attempting to sell the drugs could be redirected to a legitimate enterprise. The biggest obstacle he told me was to get them to believe in themselves. This shows me that people black, White,or brown, good, or bad, will always need to believe in what they can and cannot do, in order to successfully execute life. Sianara....God Speed...

Friday, May 8, 2009

To my brothers and sisters at arms. To you I bid, God speed, and may you hit first and hard, with the wind always at your back. My family and I thank You for your sacrifice and we want you to know that we appreciate your hard work and keeping in the tradition of our Armed Forces those of Honer, Integrity and true American grit. You will not be forgotten and we will always be grateful. Sianara..

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

On the move a little while recovering from a disc dissectamy l-5s-1 this has Ben the hardest to overcome since I realised that we truly stand alone when it comes to navigating through life's hit and misses. What I mean is that we must love ourselves before being able to love someone El's. That's why fireman keep their mask on while in the fire and smoke. As we know this is so thay themselves do not fall to the smokes deadly relationship. While recovering i have had to adhere to very simple routines, and this has allowed me to slow down from 150mph to main stream 80mph( 9to5). People are focused on themselves and and family, that's good, my point is that if you found 100,000.00 in unmarked cash, would you try and find the owner of the money or would you keep it? Omitting, god forbid you have a sick family member or friend. What ever it is that you do will define the kind of person you are. If you put feces in your mouth it doesn't matter how much you put in or how many times. The fact remains that you put it in. That said we all want to strive for greatness whatever our definition is, and in doing so we tend to forget about team work and the basics that got us to where we are . We must build on thees basics at all times. The basics never change, then it should be referd to as a new discovery, which will come with its own basics. With this i leave you with a thought , The bricks used for your stairs to prosperity, if soaked in water Will give you a stronger bond. Sianara...

Sunday, March 22, 2009

We live in our own world and most of us will not faulter from our goles, what ever they may be. We are affected by what will affect us. This i know only from fourty years of expeirence wacthing and learning when I was able to, about people what they do and why they do it. Some folkes would just rather be left alone than get involved. I say to those people, God forbid that you or one of your loved ones is assuolted or worse murderd, you would whant who ever witnessed the offence if any one, to get involved and bring the perps on front of the judge. Thats the problem, people just want to live there lives, and not be bothered by other people problems. Thats fine and dandy, but lets give a little and not be such ninnes, that we cannot stand up for whats right , and whats just. Last nite I witnessed two adults try and slap around a 17 year old kid only because he asked for a cigeret. This is where I step in, and gave a statment to the police after i provented the situation from escalating. maybe if the prosicuter proceeds with criminal charges , we may save a life later down the road. In closing I would like to say to the Chicago Cubes. Start winning games and up the anny , and you will get the better stadium. We all know you would already be in Florida if you so desiered, so spear use the shim sham...

Saturday, March 21, 2009

In 1985 I would go to the orenge groves with my youth grupe and we would provide a hot meal and blankets to migrant workers. The migrants were illegal aliens that had just come over the border, or ones who had already come over and were working and living in the fields. Who knew the farmers would have let them live in squalor just so they could cultivate the crop. In serving theis people my inquisitive nature would allow me to engage in nonjudgmental conversation. In doing so i remember them telling me that most of them were from El Salvador, and that thay were there because they were having a civil war in their country, and that the armys were taking there kids as they walked to the store to buy milk and bread. I was floored at the fact that any army of a nation would do such a thing. That they would take young children to fight a political war. Turns out that the kids were joinimg volenterily and the parents had not one thing to say, because if they did, it would mean certin death.

this brings us to my piont (Mara Salvatrucha) a gang that started in Los Angeles a gang with a ruthless reputation, the mexican mafia uses them on hits and gun running. the members 50,000 strong are living among us, here in the United states. Are they dangerus? Oh ya, they are the ones who cohesively are responsible for 80% of gang vilonce in the United states. The F.B.I states that 600 members have Ben arrested and deported back. Well at least i know they cant get back in because we build a 12 foot deep concreat fence on our border, that the border patrol states they have not found any tunnels sence its compleation, Arizona is ground zero. We need to step up and get involved. A 12 foot fenc will not keep the animals out. It will only up the any on passing over. We must all take responsibility and do dilagence and stay alert and not turn a blind eye because if we do we will not be able to send our kids to the store for bread and milk. Oh hold on, we can't do the now! Hmmmm.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

March ninteenth, today is the birthday of my seven year old Geah. She is smart, and to the point. She encomposes everything that I had, but did not use as a child. She, as well as Isabel, my four year old and my son Niko, are the reason I get up in the morning.
In the United States some missing teens are labled as runaways, that gives law inforcement the ability to say "hey we have to woury abought murderurs and rapist". Not to mention drug runners and human smugglers and pety thiefs. how are we going to stem the issu. This is one of those, falling through the cracks thing. And we as United States citizens are going to stand by and hope that someone else takes care of the situation. Well, let me let you in on a little secret . We are not stepping up, and the advocates of this sad tragedy that is manifesting its self in our nation home lands are the parents themselves, after their own child failed to come home from school or a friday nite party.
This brings me to the issu at hand. Lets talk abought gang bangers.
The "crew party" a party that begins to be advertised early on in the week at our schools across the valley. Done so with the best tech available to teens, text messaging. The "crew party" is hosted by gang members, that earlier in the week made several beer runs and stocked up on plenty of booz, and not to forget the rec drugs that will be available at the "crew party" . The gang members will use the addiction that these drugs commend from their users and use this strong motivator to lour these young women into there world. and the next thing you know , this 13, 14 or fifteen year old is on her way to some city away from where they are now, with promise of excitment and not having parents to tell them what to do and when to do it. Or not having to deal with a coke smoking, beer drinking crake head mom or dad. And there you are the gang member drives to a predestined city and lets the teen in on the fact that if they want more drugs they will have to earn money and we all know what that means.
This story is all to familiar to many families across this country and it's worse in some states than others. we must come together and stop these animals from taking our young women. We must do it in the most humain way possible. That is why we are the united states Of America.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

There are almost one million homeless teens living on the streets of our nation. Children who for one reason or another are on the street wondering where would be a good place to safely sleep for the night. I call that on oxy moron. Last week I was granted the opportunity to visit our local VA medical center to have my Staples removed. an alleged veteran sat next to me and started spouting ideological blunder, from saying that Donald Trump and Bill Gates should relinquish there riches to the poor, to something about people in Brazil that are living in the gut er. I responded as gentlemanly as possible and told him that i did not give two shits about the gutters in Brazil. This guy got up and wanted to fite with me. My point is, that we have young people living in the gutter in the United states and we cannot stand by and say that thay belong there because there bad kids. We must all try and help those who in most cases do not have the support system to get past and overcome life issues. On my next visit I will talk about the young women who are being shanghaied right out of our neighborhoods. In closing for today I would like to ask the individuals that were transporting dogs on the back of there pick up truck on the way to whatever it was that they were on the way to do, is that i know my 4 year old knows not to turn over a boiling pot of water that's on the stove. It does not mean that I will let her play around that same boiling pot. Until next time, and may the wind be always at your back. Sianara!