Love

I can, I will, I must!

One summer day

When ever the pain I deal with starts to act up, I just think about the time just prier to the doctors at the VA cutting into my back. It was a beautiful day outside and the night before arraignments were made to have our six month old looked after by family so I could go out and call on a hand full of clients, and follow up on leads that needed day canvasing in some of the most drug infested areas of Chicago. I remember this day as if it were yesterday. After a shit, shower, and a shave I was getting dressed, and as I tried to bring my leg up to put my sock on the pain in my back prevented me from doing so. Like a dumb ass, out of brute force I yanked my leg up to my other knee. Before I could reach the knee I felt almost like an electric shock surge through my body. Immediately I fell to the ground in an attempted to straiten out my torso. As long as I kept my body straight I felt no pain. The only problem was I Had just finished with a shower and my cell was on the kitchen counter ten feet away. The only other phone that was close was on my desk and out of reach, I would have to stand up and at this point that was not possible. I started yelling for help, but know one was hearing me. I was going to have to lay there all day or I would have to crawl to my cell. Looking back now, I should have waited. After a little motivational talk with myself, I reach with both hands for some floor and pulled. Immediately It felt like I was being hit by lightning, and I only made it about 10 inches. I did this nine more excruciating times, crying in agony like a baby, screaming at the top of my lungs. It would have been a good soundtrack for a horror movie. Finally I reached the cell and I called my better half at work and filled her in on my last. I don't know how, but she made it home very fast, even after stopping at ace hardware for the bolt cutters she was going to need to cut the chain that I had put back on after everybody left that morning. When she got to the house she opened the door and before she reached up with the bolt cutters, she looked at me through the slightly opened door and we both started laughing. It didn't last very long because as soon as I started laughing the shock hit me again. She cut the chain and the fire department gave me a ride to the hospital where I laid on my back for five more days. I like looking back on that day. I really like the fact that I can walk

The Sun shines on every day

Most of the individuals I come across in my day to day, seem to for the most part go to work, and are in pursuit of a happy place. Then for one day every week, they go to a place called a Church. At this gathering of faithful and giving individuals, a man or woman reads from a book and then gives a presentation of his or her interpretation of what the letters in the book really mean. What I have described to you is what a large percentage of Americas population does on a weekly basis. Then on Monday they all go back to the rat race, and Sundays sermon is gone just like Sunday. Or is it. Why isn't it Sunday every day!? Jesus wants us to live as he did. He knew that man needed free will, and that pleasures of the flesh could only be opposed by the biggest sacrifice of all, his life. As I am out among killers and thieves I say to my soul," I'm going to be just and swift, I will have Mercy, I will not think of myself, but in all party's involved". The Sun should shine on every day not just on Sunday. Sianara.

The Conn

The Conn. What can I say about this studied fellow or madam. That's what they would like to be called by the way. This only because they want all of us to think that they are the new robin hoods. That they only take from everybody and give to themselves. The kind of individual I'm telling you about is one who would like to be a positive influence on mankind, but falls short only because he or she is lazy and decides to take the road most easily traveled. So that's why I will help to stop their unquenchable thirst, the one for the underbelly they seek like the animals they are. To this worthless excuse of a life force I say, I will always get up. Not only to kiss the forehead of my children, but also to be there and meet your advances on the good people of this country. Sianara.

Everywhere on this small planet we call Earth, is a United States Service member on mission, standing post or on watch for both you and I. Whether its in a forward area, or behind the line, they do this out of duty and honer for their country. For the very same country you and I both enjoy, and are able to live as free men and women. Everybody wants to live in America, but not everybody wants to do their part. Not taking our liberties for granted would be a good place to start. So the next time you see a public servant. Say thank you. Tell them you appreciate the quality of life they provide. The next time your bummed out because you didn't get what ever it is you wanted, just remember its always good to have choices, and in America we have many. Sianara.

Midlife

Mid life, what does that mean? Does it mean you should go out and live for the moment. Does it mean you fall out of love with your woman or man. Maybe it means you die your heir and get a face lift. To me mid life means I got one chance to try, and now its for keeps. No second chances when you hit mid life. You must hit the nail dead on. If your off for what ever reason just trust your process and follow through. Otherwise you face a barrage of distractions. If you stop and question your ability rather than applying the peddle to the floor, you may miss your mark and this will ultimately lead you down the wrong path. The past is the past and with out it we would not be who we are today. I now believe that it is what it is, and not you or I can change that unless it applies to ourselves. The past may come back out of nowhere. If it does you should embrace it and follow your heart. I really believe we are who we are, when we are, for a reason. Only time will tell the truth. We should try and live for love and love to live. To my brothers and sisters in arms, God speed. Sianara.

Racing For Autism

One out of every 150 children is diagnosed with autism. Across our Nation Parent's from divers background's face the challenge of living Autistic fluent lifestyles. Parents have amassed enough information to support a PHD. They have become experts on the ins and outs of the still virtually unknown realm of Autism. I know this because my son Niko was diagnosed with Asperger at age 4. He is very bright, but the magic will not show itself unless he himself lets it flow. I have never been able to hug my son and have him hug me back, this action, the one where he is not able to show affection with a simple hug helped me to start a foundation on which to build a better understanding of Autism and how to better interact with my son Niko. I am sharing this very sensitive information so that Parents who are living the Autistic lifestyle will know that they do not stand alone. You are Heroes and I solute you. Don't ever quit, and remember Autism is just a different way to learn. Sianara and God speed. (my son Niko is 13)

A friend of mine shared the following. " I am a skip tracer. Finder of lost treasure. He who hunts Man or Woman armed or not for money. I eat sleep and live my work. My targets almost always run, my favorite response only because I can lead them and almost always hit center mast. I'm a Skip tracer. I find those who do not want to be found. My targets are almost always living beyond their means and taking what is not theirs. Only because they can. Like animals they live. Like animals they will be hunted and found. I am a Skip tracer, you can run but you can't hide."

Do not force your view, lead by example

This life we live, what a ride it has been. Not really knowing if tomorrow is coming is what keeps me going. Today a young woman, one with a significant past (only displayed to me through her emotion), accused me of attacking in order to enjoy the actual act of overpowering with words. I say to her, I will only attack when the apposing force moves forward on the power of others. A piggy back attempt if you will, to declare their own conviction on the rest of use with out regard for the collective group. This to me is the same action as our foes from the far left and right. Who only because of the energy given to them by Anger and Hate are able to tow the time line required to move major issues forward so that all may be counted. This only available to the populous in America. A free land in witch people can exude what ever it is they may deem important to the rest of us, and if we are not able to digest whats being frothed out, there seems to be a common effort to try and force it down our collective throats. Speak your peace, if people listen great. If they do not want to expos themselves to it, let them be. That's my take. God speed to my Brothers and Sisters in arms. You are my Hero's. Thank you, Sianara.

Time is the fire in which we all burn {Schwartz}

Wow! what a year. The ups, the downs. The good luck and the bad. The ones who did and the ones who did not, or came close to. The ones that were bad and the ones who were good. All of this was a gift to me. A point in time that will never leave my heart and soul. This only because I was at my point in time when called up to meet all challenges set before me. Ernest Hemingway put it best when he said,"Courage is grace under pressure". I only pray I get 365 of them again. To my love Dolores I say, lets do it again just you and I all the way to the end. Stay safe and keep your eyes and ears open. Sianara....

We live in a country where a Man can be a wrestler on TV, then transition into the day to day of the Governor of a U.S. State. Where a Man can be a star in Hollywood and rise to the Nations top position. We live in a country where a Man and a Woman can raise a family, and not have to worry about the Army taking their sons and daughters without the consent of all party's involved. We live in a country where you can walk to the corner store in most places and not have to worry about a bomb ending your existence on this Earth. We live in a country where you can speak your mind and not be jailed for it. We live in America. A free land. Free, only in what, when and where, but not in blood. Sianara..

Revelation

Dear Lord, thank you for showing me the way. I will remain strong. I will not let anger drive my emotion. I will love my Woman, and I will nurture our children. I will not lead or follow. I will forge new ground side by side with my beautiful Dolores. With you Lord, her and I are One. Thank you for allowing me to see with both eye's how much she means to me, and thank you for the Family you have blessed us with, I ask thees prayers in your son's Jesus name. Amen!

Self- Reliance

I have arrived at a time in my life when I must make a decision to ether bury my head in the sand, or fight for what I believe in. Fighting for what one believes in is the most energy draining, life altering, move it or lose it moment of one's existence. When all ells fails, we seem to gravitate in the direction of last resorts. I feel that I am at my last resort. One that will require leadership, endurance, and the most important element of them all, Self -Reliance. Self reliance is the one thing that you must really have yourself wrap around, in order to endure the ups and downs of life's curve balls. Self reliance is a product of ones inner most desires. We will rely on ourselves to do what we deem important to our survival. If you lose site of your goal, Self- Reliance will get you back on track. Once you get yourself back on the road to self enlightenment. Then only can one consider him or her self back on the road to true love of Life! I will not bury my head. Please do not bury yours. Sianara.

U.S Navy Seals under attack!

For those of you who have not watched the news yet. Fox is reporting that three of my Navy Brothers who as a three man Navy Seal Team, captured a high level and one of the most wanted terrorist who needed to be kept alive for interview. Are now on there way to court martial for giving him a bloody lip. This guy is lucky he is still on two feet and able to suck air down his Pie-Hole. He is a lucky lucky little man. Dear Lord, please bless my Brothers as they endure the latest, far left, Rules of Engagement. America better step up. Sianara and have a great day!

Be careful what you wish for,because you just mite get it!

Time, you can only buy it when its defined to you by another. True Time is only bought by the effort we put forth. What is important to others may not be to you, thus defining time in the spectrum you call Home. Now while you chew on that for a while, I would like to invite you to ask yourself how long it will take for you to realise that you are who you are and the only thing that can change that is Time. Time will tell if you are up to par. Time will determine if you have what it takes. Words like Consistency, and Resilience are not just ink on paper. The words encompass the true nature of what it takes to succeed in what ever your objective may be. Do not wish you where further ahead than what you really are, because if you embrace things like, Determination, Consistency, and Integrity, you should be where you need to be, and wanting more is simply selfish and self centered. Sianara...

Paradigms of persuasions

Its not what you say. It's how you say it.

Free Will

Free Will is all you need when considering Reciprocity. Just do it!

Killing Field

On November 12-2009 Brandon Thomas and Willie Thackston where among many of the Professional Repossessors across this country who go out and recover collateral for banks and auto lending institutions. On most nights every thing ends peaceful and safe. Not on the night of November 12. On this night Brandon Thomas never made it home to his family. The man whose car they repossessed shot and killed Brandon. Now his young children will grow up without a Father to show them the ins and outs of what life is. I say to you my Brother this tragedy will not go unnoticed. You are our Hero I solute you, and I promise I will never forget. God speed. Sianara!!

ON THIS DAY

On this day I would like to thank my Brothers and Sisters who gave, and took, life and limb. You are my Hero's. You are the ones who bear the brunt, and or not one thing. Your service and dedication to our great Nation will not go unnoticed. I solute you. God speed, Sianara!

Resilience

When the weight of the world seems to be growing heaver on my shoulders, I only thank God for giving me shoulders to bear anything with. Happy to be alive, looking forward to the next day. Knowing in your heart, that you alone made it happen and not one person can take it away. These are the feelings and emotions that from a very young age, I have used to make sure I did not start feeling sorry for myself when ever arriving at a troubles door. If you want to be thankful for what you have even if your living in a cardboard box, go spend some time at a cancer treatment center or a shelter for battered women. I'm sure you will quickly thank God for what you have. Never quit, no matter what. Sianara.